It is hard to say what is really going on in my mind. I’m having an explosion of thoughts but no one wants to show up front. Finally the gutsy has made the cut. Let’s hear it out, shall we..
All these years I wanted to live a certain way, a certain kind of lifestyle and I can tell you that I’m living it but what gave me my voice previously were my struggles, oh don’t get the wrong impression, I do struggle in a lot of ways even now, just in a smaller scale though; and outpouring them onto Word automatically provided me with a solution and that led to a blog which led to another etc etc.. Though I was having a hard time then, I also would enjoy my growth or the processing through it. I always knew that things would change like they have.
What I want to know is Why struggling is used as a derogatory word when that is what let’s us outshine in the end. For me I struggled with one particular thing and it wouldn’t budge from continuously ruining my life until I surrendered. Consider it a leech that you couldn’t get rid of but if you allow it to do what it’s supposed to, you’ll realize that it’s only doing you good.
This, what you’re going through is only a phase, it’s going to wear out, I can’t tell you when but it will, until then hold on tight and try to make sense of it all and before you know it, you’ll be on the clear. And when you’re no longer struggling you’ll always remember it and be thankful for it because that’s what has transformed you into this person that you are.